-17: last two weekends


  • Nikah outfit

We collected our baju nikah last Saturday and it turned out exactly as how he designed… which is not to my liking ahahaha. It was just two months ago when I wanted this design and when I tried it on, I was like ape ni?? Maybe it’s just my body, maybe I wasn’t properly trying it on, maybe I’ll look hundred times nicer with better makeup and matching tudung/veil. BUT I’m so happy with how Ghibli’s baju turned out. I heard horror stories so I was more worried for his than mine but I’m pleasantly surprised! The color looks good on him, it looks so tailored and fitting, we’ve got a nice matching samping so yay! So glad I don’t have to deal with this anymore.

  • Kids berkat

On Sunday we got some tidbits for kids berkat. Nothing special, I really just wanted to make use of the colorful paper bags and stickers I got from Aliexpress. $66 worth of four different items to fit at most 144 bags.. okay lah kan. And all paid for by my father so lagi lah okay 🙊🙈

  • Catering

Also on Sunday we had a meeting with my aunt (the wedding planner) again to finalize the menu. It’ll still be nasi padang and I’m so looking forward to this now. I’m a bit sick of the usual nasi minyak + ayam masak merah + daging dalca menu so hopefully guests will find this refreshing. But there won’t be sambal goreng pengantin because tak kena dengan menu so a bit sedih lah cos favourite seh tu. Then she also suggested replacing the coffee/tea with a live teh tarik. Exciting times ahead. Air balang 10 macam lah, ice kacang lah.. don’t know how all these will fit into that small tentage area. But she’s so confident so okay lah.

  • Decor

I talked to Y (the one in charge of decor)  and he wanted me to send him like 10 pictures of dais that I like but I didn’t have any and also didn’t care so I left everything to him. I like his work it’s not too bad for someone new so other than telling him my my mother’s favourite color scheme, I’ll let him decide how he wants it to be. Tak fair jugak to him if I show pictures of Jentayu/SID when he cannot re-create those designs.

  • Music playlist

On and off I’ve been trying to create a wedding playlist and throughout the entire time I’m like, “do my guests know this song?” and if no then they don’t make the cut. Which results in a playlist consisting of 80% malay songs. My mother also went, “adik… hari tu kan.. ibu pergi pengantin then dia asik main lagu arab tau! Sedap lah dengar teringat time kat Mekah. Nanti adik main lagu arab okay!” So now I have a hell lot of Nancy Ajram in my playlist. I don’t know if guests know but if it makes my mom happy then have all the Nancy Ajrams in the world k mother.

  • Miscellaneous

My remaining 17 days will be packed with settling little things like getting my artificial bridal bouquet, capal for him, facial and hair appointment. Half days on Monday and Friday next week for my bridal fitting (who forgot all about me and thought the appointment date was already set) and sugaring appointment. So nervous for the latter hehe. Left with photographer, kompang and photobooth. Shall contact them next week confirm all forgot about me already also lah.

My mom has been helping me painting the room these few days. I’m hoping to have all furniture nicely placed including the new bed which will arrive next Monday. Then I can start organizing my things hehee SO excited to have my own room.. for whatever days left remained.

Yay yay dah nak kahwin!!


-30: sodium x magnesium

Everything is suddenly speeding up.

I haven’t distributed the wedding cards to my friends/colleagues. I haven’t started anything on the room (but I guess that’s because my brother and his wife are still not moving out). I haven’t followed up anything with my vendors (video, photo, bridal, decor, kompang) and I don’t know if I should or just wait for them. I haven’t chosen any appropriate songs for our wedding and for our video.

I’m at this stage where I don’t care anymore and I’ll just let things happen as it is. I have spent the past one year planning for this wedding and as I’m getting nearer to the date, I’m less enthusiastic about it. I don’t even know if I’m excited for our honeymoon. My period tracker app says I’ll be getting my period two days before the wedding and I was contemplating on taking pills to delay but I’m just like f it lah. But I’m weirdly looking forward to that in between time we have together, the Monday-Tuesday before we fly for our funtime on Wednesday. The thought of walking hand in hand running our errands with heavy henna on my hands and wedding rings on our fingers is making me giddy hehe.

I have been with him for 4 years and 5 months today. It’s crazy to think how all the time spent laughing, fighting, crying these past years is leading up to this. And in a month’s time things will change and it’s only the beginning of everything.

I’m listening to Jason Mraz’s Details in The Fabric as I’m typing this and I’m getting very emotional. But in the words of James Morrison, “and everything will be fine”.